This one leads by aggression, overt control, and superiority over others. They depend on others staying afraid and insecure. This leader is deeply insecure and fears a fate worse than death: Being a "common nobody".
They work hard to keep their fear hidden since they see it as a weakness. This one is energetically similar to a slave owner and does not want the ‘slaves’ to discover their own inner power since that would topple the false authority of this “leader”.
In an intuition program as a client is transforming what’s been holding them back, it’s not uncommon for me to show up to one of our sessions hearing their urgent concern that their ego is now getting big.
“I need help healing this ego-trip that I’m on”
And then they share more about the experiences they are having.
As I listen it is clear to me that they are actually feeling confident in a new way. They are falling in love with themselves.
This is not just on a “I believe in myself” mental level.
It is a very real contact with the being.
I'm a wild horse.
I run at my own pace.
I don't wait on others to catch up.
I don't try to keep with others that are faster than me.
I love my freedom.
I also love crossing paths with other wild ones.
I'm sensitive to others' energy.
If someone is a kind spirit I am glad to help them.
If someone is caring and I can learn something from them, I don't mind being trained and being obedient.
If I feel restricted or disrespected I will break free and run away.
Any other wild horses here?
Feelings of anger and frustration came up for me this week. Yet also heaviness and resistance at the thought of facing and exploring these feelings. The anger and frustration was triggered by recent world and U.S. events.
Ugh, it’s too much, I just wanted to numb it all and go to sleep.
But I knew I needed to work with these feelings.
I started expressing it and the feelings of anger and frustration grew stronger and just kept coming, over and over. It felt endless as I traveled through this anger. I kept saying “I hate this situation!” and “I hate being here!”. Resistance and tiredness still in my body as I traveled back through many lifetimes. I felt acute frustration with this f***ing broken-record of experience on this planet: The same manipulation, the same darkness, the same hypnosis that uses fear to control people.
On the periphery we each have our stories, diverse experiences, and unique way of being in the world.
At our core, in our center, is something beyond our personal identity.
This is the only place where I’ve glimpsed true equality and unity.
This place is also sometimes called the zero-point. Where nothing is happening and yet all is possible.
My perspective on what it means to Be Conscious.
It is not in the way I talk or words I use. It's not the way I look, act, or dress. It is not a technique I use or approach to life I prefer. It is not the teacher I love working with. Nor is it about some kind of gift, talent, or ability. It is not in being kind nor is it in any particular trait in me.
It's not a list of good deeds I can show off.
It's not in the money or any outer success I can attain.
It's not in environmentally aware habits, living clean, or simple. It's not in not having money, success or possessions either.
“This Should Be Easy” <- Ever have this judgment toward yourself?
I have this habit - When anything breaks or something needs to be maintained: on my car, on my computer, or in my home. I immediately go into mental complaining and resistance. If possible I will find a way to avoid dealing with it.
Even the smallest things. The other day I got home and a light bulb in my kitchen went out. My mind immediately said what it typically says “Oh man, such a pain. Nah, I’ll change the light bulb later. I can live with less light in here”.
Author: Leela Haris ~ Intuition