MEET LEELA
I was 36 the first time I consciously acted on my intuition and I was afraid of what it was asking me to do.
It was early 2011 when I discovered a book titled “In Search of the Miraculous: Healing into Consciousness”. It would be several years later until I would even begin to grasp most of the book's contents. There was one paragraph in it about healing the ego and the stages of letting go however that I could grasp, and it spoke incredibly and surprisingly accurate to my circumstances. I looked up the author’s website and it announced an upcoming 10-day intensive she leads.
When I saw the event something mysterious in me said to GO.
I was afraid to go because it didn’t make sense for me to attend a spiritual meditation retreat. I didn’t feel healthy or mentally strong enough for it to be of any help to me. I had spent years trying unsuccessfully to come off the psychiatric medications I depended on for 15 years (prescribed to me for adhd, depression, and anxiety).
I assumed a meditation retreat was for people who didn't need to take a pill to function, can meditate for hours, survive on salad, and be happy about nothing.
I wasn't that "kind of person". I felt so far from being that "kind of person".
But I went.
I went because of that mysterious feeling in me telling me to go.
When I saw the event something mysterious in me said to GO.
I was afraid to go because it didn’t make sense for me to attend a spiritual meditation retreat. I didn’t feel healthy or mentally strong enough for it to be of any help to me. I had spent years trying unsuccessfully to come off the psychiatric medications I depended on for 15 years (prescribed to me for adhd, depression, and anxiety).
I assumed a meditation retreat was for people who didn't need to take a pill to function, can meditate for hours, survive on salad, and be happy about nothing.
I wasn't that "kind of person". I felt so far from being that "kind of person".
But I went.
I went because of that mysterious feeling in me telling me to go.
I flew from my home in the midwestern, United States and landed in Vancouver, British Columbia with such a torrent of doubts and biases. But the experience of those next 10 days with the author of the book and spiritual teacher, Mada Dalian, shocked me in a positive way. Those 10 days changed me more than the previous 15 years of searching combined. One change is that I stopped taking all psychiatric medication during that retreat and never took them again since.
I had up until then spent my life fearing, doubting, and suppressing my inner world. The work done in those intensives involves specific active meditations and activities designed to release trapped emotions and self-sabotaging thoughts and to increase self-awareness, intuition, and intelligence. We were given so much freedom to express and explore ourselves! I was terrified of it, yet it was also liberating and healing!
My past searching consisted of reading many self-improvement & self-help books, trying special diets, healing approaches, attending therapy, and consulting with doctors and alternative practitioners. There was some progress from the things I had done and I needed to experience those things. This experience with Mada however, it catapulted me beyond all of them.
Ending the medication was a big deal at the time but it was also just the beginning.
For the next few years, I encountered and healed many layers of negative beliefs and emotions that the medications had previously kept suppressed. As I worked closely with Mada I learned how to use the Dalian Method (DM). The DM became the primary technique that would unravel me - and I mean that in the best possible way. I never experienced something this deeply healing, powerful, and real! I finally had a way to truly understand myself! I started to uncover a natural joy, compassion, and courage within me. Life became increasingly joyful and meaningful.
I had up until then spent my life fearing, doubting, and suppressing my inner world. The work done in those intensives involves specific active meditations and activities designed to release trapped emotions and self-sabotaging thoughts and to increase self-awareness, intuition, and intelligence. We were given so much freedom to express and explore ourselves! I was terrified of it, yet it was also liberating and healing!
My past searching consisted of reading many self-improvement & self-help books, trying special diets, healing approaches, attending therapy, and consulting with doctors and alternative practitioners. There was some progress from the things I had done and I needed to experience those things. This experience with Mada however, it catapulted me beyond all of them.
Ending the medication was a big deal at the time but it was also just the beginning.
For the next few years, I encountered and healed many layers of negative beliefs and emotions that the medications had previously kept suppressed. As I worked closely with Mada I learned how to use the Dalian Method (DM). The DM became the primary technique that would unravel me - and I mean that in the best possible way. I never experienced something this deeply healing, powerful, and real! I finally had a way to truly understand myself! I started to uncover a natural joy, compassion, and courage within me. Life became increasingly joyful and meaningful.
After adjusting to life as a happier person I began to sense that there's also more to all this than simply achieving a happier state. I was compelled to keep going with the inner work but my motivation was no longer solely to get rid of pain and problems.
There was something deeper happening for me.
I was waking up my intuition, expanding my consciousness, and making it a way of life for myself.
I also realized that I was a seeker at heart and that deep down I had always been.
And then in time came a further realization: That this was bigger than 'me' and it was time to begin sharing what I've learned and mentoring others. I started this website in 2015.
Through private sessions, workshops, speaking, and writing, I support others who, like me, have a longing to experience more of their inner potential.
I remain a seeker and grateful student of Mada Dalian.
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