See, your Agony and your Ecstasy (your Light and your Dark) they live RIGHT next to each other. They are actually really good friends. They hang out. They trade recipes. They share secrets.
They get together and have regular goofball dance sessions.
They laugh hysterically at each other's jokes.
They even speak in secret code, the way that best friends often do.
And when one is struggling the other comes in and says “Hey look, I know a better way, let me show you”. They keep each other close to home by helping each other find the thread when it has been lost.
When left as they are they don’t compete against one another. Their differences and contrasting natures are beautiful and necessary. They are actually deeply compatible.
But. We try to keep them apart.
We have bought into this idea that our opposites are enemies. So we teach them not to trust each other.
When we are with Agony we say “Wow, what a bunch of delusional B.S. Ecstasy is”.
And when we are with Ecstasy we might say “Man, what a loser and downer Agony is, a complete waste of time. Life is so much better without Agony.”
Is it time to end the war on yourself?
To help end this war we can start remembering the bigger picture, remembering the ocean while riding and feeling the waves.
We might shift our attitude towards the up and the down states to something like:
“Okay I will accept you to the fullest but I also know you are temporary. I intend to let you go when it's time”
“Okay so you scare me a little and I’m not sure I understand you, but is there anything you want to show me?”
One tiny little...
...can change EVERYTHING.
There are actually many ways to be only a part of ourselves. The“war” dialogue above is just one example where we can cling to and drown in one part while completely forgetting the bigger picture.
Another common way is to deny and suppress a part of ourselves, thereby not feeling any one thing very much. We think we can suppress something "negative" and be better off, but doing this we end up suppressing our joy and our ecstatic experiences too.
I was diagnosed as bi-polar at around age 30. I used the Dalian Method to transform the root causes of what triggered me to lose perspective and get lost and extreme in my emotional ups and downs.
Leela Haris - Expanding Consciousness